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| My late eldest son, Ahmad Faizal Fadzil |
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life has been what I would say so helpless and sour by the day lamenting the loss of our first born son, Faiz (full name Ahmad
Faizal) since he passed away on 13 March 2007, aged 39. He was an ex-journalist with Berita Harian and later worked as a Deputy Head of Research and Information in the Menteri Besar Johore'office under the then Menteri Besar Datuk Abd. Ghani Othman. It was a crushing blow to
us both then and never had we thought life would be so devastating and rotten as I felt it to this
day. Faiz was so adorable. He was a very abedient and unselfish son, loved by
all - familes, friends and adversaries alike. The loss seems unbearable as time goes
by. I feel it and the more I think about him the more I feel desolate and lifeless.
He was my future hope and the benevolence of my children and grandchildren. In
fact he was our inspiration.
The
thought of my son’s demise ia clearly becoming the source of my discomfort as I would have to exert extra inertia to complete the work
entrusted to me by Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka (DBP), doing research for DBP’s
programme on the achievement of the Malay
language since 50 years ago, and while at the same time I could not help but thinking of my late son. He was always in my mind. . At times we forcefully took our time off visiting Faiz's "pusara" at Kubu Gajah Cemetry in Sg. Buloh. Nonetheless, life has to go on despite the setback. Hopefully we will survive God Willing! - Sunday, 18 Februaary 2008
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